Don't get me wrong -- there's a lot to love about life right now. Wes isn't in class anymore, so we have more time to spend together. He can focus on cooking & good mobster books {his favorite these days} and still have time to keep up on language study and prepare for PhD work. I enjoy him enjoying the extra time he has when he's not taking 12 hours of class. I love my job, and I find a lot of purpose in doing it, so there are no problems there. I've gotten into a great exercise routine, I'm finding time to clean my little apartment, and I'm thoroughly engrossed in Ally McBeal, a show most people watched ten years ago. Calista Flockhart makes me smile. But you know what? In the midst of it all, I'm kind of lonely.

It's not that I don't have friends -- I do. But a lot of them have moved away. I try to keep up with them via facebook and blogs and phone dates, but it's not the same. Most of my sweet friends in Louisville keep much busier schedules than I do. If I don't think to schedule time with them in advance, I find myself with no plans at all over the weekends -- which, don't get me wrong, is usually just the way I like it. But there's rarely anyone to enjoy the down time with these days... no one to hop in my car to run to Target, no one to watch a redbox with, no one to make Costco trips fun {miss you, Kelly!}.
There's a chance we could stay in Louisville if Wes ends up at Asbury. And if that's what happens, that's fine. I can start over, so to speak, and begin to invest in new friendships. But I don't really want to do that if we're moving in six months, you know?
I'll get through this stage. Like I said, there's much to be thankful for. And tonight? Well. Tonight I'm going to a movie with my dear friend Kari & some other girls, so I'm really looking forward to that. We're going to see The Vow. I have no idea what it's about, and I never go to movie theaters, so it seems like an adventure {I know -- I need to get out more}. I am sneaking in a bottle of diet pepsi, some swedish fish & a giant Kit Kat bar... 20 weight-watchers points worth of sugary delight! I eat well during the weeks so I can splurge over the weekend, and I just can't wait. :)
Let me end this slightly depressing post by saying this: if you're reading this, chances are you're a dear friend who makes my life rich & less lonely just by being in it. I'm grateful!
2 comments:
you could fly over:) all my friends wear saris now. it's not really the same kind of friendship, you know:) miss you!
I'm glad we had a sneak in food/fun movie night together! Let's do that more often. The fun night part. Or swedish fish can always be involved, it's whatever.
Maybe I could come zumba with you one night...can I pay for just one class?
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