Funk

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

I wish this post was titled "funky," or something other than funk, which, unfortunately, pretty accurately describes my overall current state. I'm tired and I can't seem to get ahead. Here's how my weeks go by:

Monday: Work 8-4
Tuesday: Work 8-6; Community Group (in my home!) 7-9
Wednesday: Work 8-4
Thursday: Work 8-6; Seminary Wives' Institute 7:30-9
Friday: Work 8-4

It seems like there's a lot of time in the evenings MWF, but honestly, I don't feel it. Tuesdays and Thursdays are so incredibly long that Wednesday and Friday I play catch up. Read: I'm basically useless after I get home from work. (Tonight, for instance, I haven't eaten anything; I'm too tired!) Saturdays I catch up on chores (cleaning, laundry, etc.), Sunday has less than 24 hours in it (I swear it does, otherwise how does it go by so quickly?), and then? Then we start over.

I know I'm whining, and you probably don't come to my blog to hear me whine. Thanks for listening. I'm trying to work up the energy to paint my furniture, I really am....

Until then, since I don't have much to offer you, why don't I link to some good reads?

Don't miss this classic Dooce post (it's long, but it's worth it!)
This makes me want to beg my husband to reconsider....
I would never wear a ring like this, but I do love her blog!
I love this kitchen. Love love love love loooooveeeee.
I just might pre-order this. Yum.


PS: So this is a weighty PS, but here's the deal: I am considering looking into medication for depression. I don't feel depressed, necessarily, but I'm just so tired ALL the time and I guess I could have a cheerier outlook on life. Some days are better than others. Could these be side effects of depression I don't know I have? I'm assuming some of you will have thoughts on this, which is why I'm posting it here!

5 comments:

Brent and Abigail said...

I think what you need is a trip to va beach. always makes everyone feel better :) but seriously i dont have any other advice. I get into funks that last a while sometimes and seem to just live for the trips we take and that sometimes helps with the monotony. I'll be praying for you.

Stephanie said...

Sometimes you just have to work through funks. I recommend NOT going on anti depressants if you don't REALLY need them. My sister was on them for awhile for her chronic pain and coming off them is not fun. Seriously, though, they really mess with your body. Praying for you!!

P.S. SVU starts in TWO weeks! That will definitely help lift your spirits, right? :D

Anonymous said...

this is probably not what you want to hear...but research has shown that regular moderate exercise can work as the equivalent to taking a mild antidepressant. i know, i know...i'm being that annoying person right now...exercise gives you energy even though you think it will make you tired. you don't even have to run...just walk briskly. i bet you hate this comment.

you did ask for my 2 cents though. seriously, lunch soon. sorry to hear this.

Laura D

Briana Meeks said...

Hello Beth!

i have to agree with above, antidepressants are serious medications and i would not take considering using them lightly. however, for some people, they do serve the purpose of correcting chemical balances that are out of whack - even just a little - that it can make all the difference in a person's life. i would talk to your doctor seriously about all the risks and benefits of trying, even a very low dose. some people just need them for a short time to allow the body to reach a new equilibrium and some people find that they are much happy and use them long term. it is my opinion that there is no shame and nothing wrong with using antidepressants, but just have a realistic understanding of what you are doing when taking them. and if i can say anything, be 100% honest with your physician, they can only help you if you tell them the truth.

i might also suggest counseling. it know it seems silly and cliche, but i would not have made it through medical school without monthly (at least, if not more frequent) counseling sessions. sometimes it good, no great, to talk to someone who doesn't know you about your issues, concerns, joys and fears. it is amazing how clear it is to see when you look from the outside in.

and i can not help but 10000000000000000% agree with Laura D (sorry Laura, I do not know you but you are a very intelligent woman) and her exercise theory. in fact, its not a theory but proven effective treatment. exercise works. some form of it. even if it as simple a series of stretches you do every morning to start your day. just doing one thing like this, for yourself, can greatly improve one's mood.

sorry for such a lengthy post. i hope all of our input helps to encourage you and brighten your day.

many thoughts & prayers,
Briana

Jessi said...

Misys, I know I'm a little late reading/commenting on this, but you know how I am. :-)

Do not start taking anti-depressants...at least not unless a doctor seriously recommends it, and even then I'd think twice. You know I am on a load of medications for my condition (if you want to call it that). One of these is an anti depressant. I agree with your friend,Stephanie. They are really hard to stop taking once you start and they do terrible, messed up things to your body. I would really hate for you to go through some of the messed up moments I've gone through with these meds. I love you, and will be praying for you. Keep me posted.

Love,
Jessi

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